Repeated abuses, salt on wounds and insults that make you remember about all the bad things you have done in your life made me what i am today, and made me feel all those unwanted and unnamed feelings that i feel.....
performance anxiety, low levels of self confidence, a constant loathing for being what i am, fear of things going wrong, fear of doing something that i will regret, the hate i feel for myself when i see at all those things that i could have done and achieved but i simply let those go down the drain....
i hate the times when people remind me of the times i was at my best and compare it to the me that i am now...cos honestly i hate what i have slowly turned out to be....
my days of glory are gone....
times go by and people change....i also changed with time...but i changed for the worse...
life has been a downward spiral for me after one moment of time with just a few good things in it now...my girl, my friends, my guitar, my music.....
the rest is just shitty and fucked up beyond anything....
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